December 4th I put in my resignation notice, no not two week notice just “resignation”. I’m never going back there again, my dad turned in my keys and badge to my work Monday when I had my procedure. I actually tried to check my work email to see the response and apparently my work email has already been deleted from the system LMAO. FINE BITCHES, I’M OUT.
(under the cut is some rough shit I had a hard time writing, a lot of it dealing with depression.)
This is what I want to say but can’t fit it all on one card.
I had a nervous breakdown on Friday after being sent home early with a fever. I came to the realization the work environment I’m in is not healthy for me, mentally or physically.
I finished working on a concept book for my story that I’ll be passing out during NYCC. I’m very scared because I’m about to start a very important chapter in my life, one that I’ve been pushing away and denying. But I’m going to focus on my writing. It makes me truly happy. I can’t stand having to work to just “support myself” when I know it’s bs.
I feel like I’m going to disappoint a lot of people at work by leaving but I don’t want to half ass work because I don’t enjoy it. And I feel like I’m doing a disservice by not being my best in that environment. I had a mental breakdown on Friday while laying in bed with a fever and realized “the fuck am I doing? I’m fucking miserable”. While I am going to miss the job I’m also not going to guilt myself for not sticking it through the year. I feel as if I did the best I could given the situations occurring.
I’m so excited and driven to finish my story, it’s now or never.
THANKS A LOT
So, I finished reading Felicia Day’s “You’re Never Weird on the Internet (Almost)” and I’ve never cared much for memoirs but this was more of an inspirational read than a tell all book.
Before I begin talking about how awesome this book was I figured I should get some fancy wine and swivel it in a glass, so I did.
So I’ve been really busy these past few months… years? I don’t even know at this point.
I started a new job, went to some cons, had some awesome things happen to me, had some NOT SO AWESOME THINGS happen as well. But, that is life. And as the great Aaliyah once said “If at first you don’t succeed, dust yourself off and try again.” I feel that’s very fitting given this post and my new approach.
Originally what I thought I was doing with this blog. Aka WRONG
So originally I made this blog as to be some sort of “nerd blog” to impress people or something, I’m actually not quite sure what I was going for?? But I wasn’t doing it for me, I was doing it for all the wrong reasons, and now I want to do this for me and start over! Yay!!
New me, new blog
So now I’m gonna post about what I want and when I want, and about whatever I want. I stopped using Tumblr, which was the best thing for me, but now I don’t have anywhere to post about things that interest me. Except I do now!
Anyways, work starts back up in a week. Bl womp womp
Things to look forward to: Baltimore Comic Con and New York Comic Con.
I’m also super excited to start working on my story again, so hopefully I’ll have some fun things to post about on here about it. In the meanwhile you can take a look at my story’s tumblr where I’ve previously posted a few scenes and art: The Coldest Winter
Thanks guys for putting up with me,
My macbook ended up dying so I had to replace my faithful friend after 5 good years of friendship. 8,( Rest In Peace Steve the Macbook.
I’ve been really busy these last couple months.
I got to see the early screening of Captain America: The Winter Soldier in D.C. with my good friends, I met Sebastian Stan and DIDN’T die, I went to Canada and gained 10 pounds, and now I’m getting ready for Otakon!
IN OTHER NEWS…
I somehow managed to get tickets for New York Comic Con and now slightly freaking out because the people I thought were going and I was going to room with AREN’T going. *hEAVY BREATHING* So, if anyone knows of hotel space, let me know. You would save me a panic attack and a lot of stress. I don’t care if it’s floor space I just need somewhere to put my crap and my body for a couple nights.
I’ll make sure to make a post before Otakon, that’s less of me whining and more about con stuff.
I’m trying not to die of a sinus infection, after finding out I’ve been taking my medicine incorrectly due to very vague instructions thanks to the idiot doctor who prescribed me the antibiotics. ANYWAYS, check out these cute tissue I got from Five & Below!
….Sorry, sickly Steve problems.
Below the cut is where I actually get to the Winter Soldier bits